Sunday, November 30, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
2 New Mixtapes To Download
And Dedication 3(Lil Wayne).The Asher Roth one is pretty good,but D3 is one of the best mixtapes i've heard this year.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Today
Today was okay.I slept half the day away.I didnt wake up until around 12:30.The reason for that is because i stayed up until 4 that morning.I'm addicted to the internet,especially myspace.But yeah,i stayed in the house until about 8 and me and tha fam took a lil ride.Drove down by the stockyards and downtown.Then headed to TCU for a quick look.During that time i was drinkin my caramel macchiato from starbucks.NASTY!!!!!!!!!If u don't like strong ball slappin cofee,don't get that.I normally get white mocha,but me trynna be spontaneous,switched it up and i payed the price.And i burned my tongue.Ummm thats all i gotta say so ttyl!!!!!
Thursday, November 27, 2008
FINALLY GOT 808s & HEARTBREAK!!!!!!!!!
Idk why my voice was soo high.Its normally not that high.And weenie-ish.Oh well enjoy!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Epiphany
I was just tlkn to lola on myspace and i kinda noticed somethin.I kinda went off subject on the comment but if she reads this,she'll know why.Warning,this was extremely cofusing to read myself so bear with me plz!
I remember the first time i listened all the way through graduation.I repeated it.When i got that cd,i had just found out that i didn't want to be a copy anymore.I was just another south pole wearin black kid,and i didn't like it anymore.That cd taught me self confidence and how to be an individual.That was at the peak of my happiness and Kanye's happiness.But both of us go through some pretty hard stuff afterwards,his stuff sooner and mine later.Maybe two or three months later he losses his mother and awhile after that,he breaks off his engagement with his fiancee.My luck changed on the day of the senior graduation.I had a lil altercation with my stepdad.Then i suffered the worst summer of my life.All i did was practice golf and i found out that my real father doesn't give a fuck about.Srry for the strong language i usually don't cuss but when it comes to him,everything changes.The thing that really hurts me the most about that though is that i reached out to him on a weekly basis and he said he would send for me.Then he stopped answering the phone when i called and thats all i wanna say about him.All i want is christmas presents from him.Anyways,i didn't do anything all summer.And at that point i could actually tlk to my gurlfriend,but my dad wouldn't let me go and chill at her house.All i wanted to do was watch movies and play pool.Sex was the last thing on my mind.Thats the kind of bond we have.He let me go over one day towards the end of summer and that was like for an hour and a half.I cherished all that time i had too.Soo then band camp comes around and i enjoyed it because i got outta the house and away from golf practice and daily bible studies.Then the first week of school came and I was on cloud nine.Nothin could go wrong,until that weekend.It started out good.My aunt came and stayed with me while my parents and siblings were out of town.I went and played golf one and then that sunday i went to my gf's dad's church(he's a pastor.I'm brave i know).Afterwards,i went to their house for a lil church people bbq.Watched Texas Chain Saw Massacre,ate good food,and cuddled(how manly).After that i left and went home.I took a nap and went to eat at logans with my aunt.Went home and chilled.The next day is when it got bad.I woke up and said good-bye to my aunt,who was goin back home.I had the house and car to myself.Several hours,some bad text messages,and an ill-advised car ride later,i was in some deep shit.My gurls parents were trippin and they didn't want us to date anymore.Idk how to express that time.Well maybe one word:confused.They had me thinking i was a bad kid.But then i sat back and thought "i'm not bad.Ur stupid.As a pastor,u should be more forgiving than ur being.I FUCKIN WROTE U A FOUR PAGE LETTER(in pencil),APOLOGIZING FOR ALL THE STUPID SHIT I DID.HOW DARE U JUDGE ME????I'VE ONLY SAID SIX SENTENCES TO U IN ALL MY LIFE,AND U WANNA JUDGE ME BASED ON 2 HOURS OF MY ACTIONS???My bad i lost my cool,but fuck that shit irritates me.So then he changed his mind and said that we needed time away from each other.In three weeks,yall can date again.My parents didn't like how he thought he just dictate stuff,but they said if ur cool wit it,we're cool wit it.So yeeah i'm happy and waiting in anticipation of being able to date her again.Then i thought,"Hey,the end of the three weeks is a coupla days before homecoming."So yeah i start to pick out my outfit(a neyo,jonas brothers crossover).I'm the happiest kid ever and then the end of the three weeks comes and her dad says,"I think its best if yall don't date anymore."He says,"He's just a kid tryin to spit game and he'll prolly cheat on you.Hell,he's prolly cheatin on you now."I'm tryin to restrain from usin all caps rite now.First,i ain't tryin to spit game.I am spittin game.Lol jk i couldn't resitst.But yeah,where does he get this stuff from???If you're still reading this,because its really long,does that sound like me???Leave a comment and lemme know.I could do another blog saying alotta stuff about homeboi but another day maybe.So yeah things just got worse from there.And then my parents started trippin and now they think everyone i associate is a bad influence for me and i should concentrate on skool and stuff.So after going over about a year and a half of my life,i wanna say that 808s & Heartbreaks is touchin rite into my depression.I listened to pinnochio's story while writing this whole thing and he said he saw himself on t.v and saw nothing.When i see pics of me smiling recently compared to times before September 1,2008,i see a drastic difference.The newer ones look so fake.When i do smile it almost looks painful.The lines that my face makes looked like they haven't been made in a long time.Like they haven't been used in awhile.But thru all that,its kool cuz i see my idol goin thru stuff too.Mine might not be as serious,but it lets me know i can connect with someone.I think the way for me to be happier is to go to college in New York like i want and for Kanye to(unfortunately)take a lil break and recollect his thoughts in hawaii or somewhere far off.This has been long enough and if u made all the way to the bottom of this post,wut a weenie.Jk.I'm done for awhile.Peace and Much Love To You.
I remember the first time i listened all the way through graduation.I repeated it.When i got that cd,i had just found out that i didn't want to be a copy anymore.I was just another south pole wearin black kid,and i didn't like it anymore.That cd taught me self confidence and how to be an individual.That was at the peak of my happiness and Kanye's happiness.But both of us go through some pretty hard stuff afterwards,his stuff sooner and mine later.Maybe two or three months later he losses his mother and awhile after that,he breaks off his engagement with his fiancee.My luck changed on the day of the senior graduation.I had a lil altercation with my stepdad.Then i suffered the worst summer of my life.All i did was practice golf and i found out that my real father doesn't give a fuck about.Srry for the strong language i usually don't cuss but when it comes to him,everything changes.The thing that really hurts me the most about that though is that i reached out to him on a weekly basis and he said he would send for me.Then he stopped answering the phone when i called and thats all i wanna say about him.All i want is christmas presents from him.Anyways,i didn't do anything all summer.And at that point i could actually tlk to my gurlfriend,but my dad wouldn't let me go and chill at her house.All i wanted to do was watch movies and play pool.Sex was the last thing on my mind.Thats the kind of bond we have.He let me go over one day towards the end of summer and that was like for an hour and a half.I cherished all that time i had too.Soo then band camp comes around and i enjoyed it because i got outta the house and away from golf practice and daily bible studies.Then the first week of school came and I was on cloud nine.Nothin could go wrong,until that weekend.It started out good.My aunt came and stayed with me while my parents and siblings were out of town.I went and played golf one and then that sunday i went to my gf's dad's church(he's a pastor.I'm brave i know).Afterwards,i went to their house for a lil church people bbq.Watched Texas Chain Saw Massacre,ate good food,and cuddled(how manly).After that i left and went home.I took a nap and went to eat at logans with my aunt.Went home and chilled.The next day is when it got bad.I woke up and said good-bye to my aunt,who was goin back home.I had the house and car to myself.Several hours,some bad text messages,and an ill-advised car ride later,i was in some deep shit.My gurls parents were trippin and they didn't want us to date anymore.Idk how to express that time.Well maybe one word:confused.They had me thinking i was a bad kid.But then i sat back and thought "i'm not bad.Ur stupid.As a pastor,u should be more forgiving than ur being.I FUCKIN WROTE U A FOUR PAGE LETTER(in pencil),APOLOGIZING FOR ALL THE STUPID SHIT I DID.HOW DARE U JUDGE ME????I'VE ONLY SAID SIX SENTENCES TO U IN ALL MY LIFE,AND U WANNA JUDGE ME BASED ON 2 HOURS OF MY ACTIONS???My bad i lost my cool,but fuck that shit irritates me.So then he changed his mind and said that we needed time away from each other.In three weeks,yall can date again.My parents didn't like how he thought he just dictate stuff,but they said if ur cool wit it,we're cool wit it.So yeeah i'm happy and waiting in anticipation of being able to date her again.Then i thought,"Hey,the end of the three weeks is a coupla days before homecoming."So yeah i start to pick out my outfit(a neyo,jonas brothers crossover).I'm the happiest kid ever and then the end of the three weeks comes and her dad says,"I think its best if yall don't date anymore."He says,"He's just a kid tryin to spit game and he'll prolly cheat on you.Hell,he's prolly cheatin on you now."I'm tryin to restrain from usin all caps rite now.First,i ain't tryin to spit game.I am spittin game.Lol jk i couldn't resitst.But yeah,where does he get this stuff from???If you're still reading this,because its really long,does that sound like me???Leave a comment and lemme know.I could do another blog saying alotta stuff about homeboi but another day maybe.So yeah things just got worse from there.And then my parents started trippin and now they think everyone i associate is a bad influence for me and i should concentrate on skool and stuff.So after going over about a year and a half of my life,i wanna say that 808s & Heartbreaks is touchin rite into my depression.I listened to pinnochio's story while writing this whole thing and he said he saw himself on t.v and saw nothing.When i see pics of me smiling recently compared to times before September 1,2008,i see a drastic difference.The newer ones look so fake.When i do smile it almost looks painful.The lines that my face makes looked like they haven't been made in a long time.Like they haven't been used in awhile.But thru all that,its kool cuz i see my idol goin thru stuff too.Mine might not be as serious,but it lets me know i can connect with someone.I think the way for me to be happier is to go to college in New York like i want and for Kanye to(unfortunately)take a lil break and recollect his thoughts in hawaii or somewhere far off.This has been long enough and if u made all the way to the bottom of this post,wut a weenie.Jk.I'm done for awhile.Peace and Much Love To You.
A Kid Named Cudi
I recently downloaded a kid cudi's mixtape called,"A Kid Named Cudi."His mixtape is in heavy rotation wherever i am and i listen to it before i go to sleep.It could be alot longer but even for a short mixtape,its gold.I like how he sings on alot of his song.Its tha new thing Kanye told us was gonna happen.Idk if he was singing before Ye signed him to his music label G.O.O.D Music,but they have sumthin in common and thats why i think he signed him.So yeah go download it.I downloaded it from pirate bay because the link to download it on other websites is gone.Wherever u downloaded it from,you'll be happy!
Rant For The Day
Today wasn't that good of a day.My eyes have been burning all day because my grandmother from mississippi came to visit for tha week and she smokes.....alot!I've been feelin bad all day.On tha bright side I only have 4 days left of this rather than 5.That didn't help.My myspace is startin to show a lil life.This one is a lil more colorful than tha last one which is good to me.Tha last myspace was like all black people with a sprinkle of white and a few asians,but this one i got now is alot different.My lips are chapped from tha golf tournament tha other day and its really irritating me.And now my hands are ashy all tha time.Today i went somewhere and a kid told me my jeans were too tight.To me thats a step in tha rite direction.They weren't really all that tight they were just tight for a black kid.So my black 501 levi's are my favorite jeans.My hair is soooo nappy rite now.I have no earthly idea wut ima do with it after this week.I think ima gotta let it grow another week cuz i'm supposed to be doin a hair show for my barber and he's gonna cut it in a mohawk.This hairshow will be entrance into tha music industry.Ask me on myspace if u wanna know.I'm gettin a keyboard for x-mas so i can finally make some beats and money.I already got an Alesis drum machine so tha keyboard is another step foward.I'm excited and my keyboard should be purchased tha day after thanksgiving so i think i'll open it then.Idc about openin stuff on x-mas anymore really.Well thats it kay bye!
Monday, November 24, 2008
Finally A Person Who Sees What I See
"Society can rob people of their confidence and self-esteem."-Kanye West.
Don't Worry,I'm Still Alive lol
I haven't been on blogger in a coupla days,but its felt like an eternity.My dad took tha computer that i use so i wuz s.o.l for that time.If my dad in florida asks me what i want for christmas,i'm askin for a mac book pro.Thats for all tha times i sit home and wait for him to call like he says he will.Lol.That wasn't kool but its my true feelings.So yeah.I've been wearin my long hair in a mohawk tha last coupla days.I like tha reaction i'm gettin so i might keep it this way.Your welcome ;).Had a golf torney today and it was pretty good.I shot a 93 which isn't really all that good,but i'm gettin back to my summer form of 85 and up.When i want to be good,i am good.When i wanna be bad,i am bad.Am i thinkin too highly of myself???Am I really that good to be able to turn it on like that???Dramatic Pause and a moment of pondering....Of course and thats with everything.Band,golf,and skool.So yeah i'm on my way to bein a beast.Some funny stuff happened today at tha torney.We had a kid quit golf(for a 45 min span),I played in a group with some really interesting kids,and now i'm these two black gurls female dog(i try to stay g rated).Tha kids i played with were strange,one more than tha other.Tha really weird one is black,unfortunately.He would tlk to tha animals around us and it was scary.He also fell off tha golf cart.ROFL!!!!!!!But yeah i'm tired of tlkn so bye!(i'm so dedicated)
Saturday, November 22, 2008
College Student Kills Himself On Webcam
Abraham Briggs,a student at Broward College in Florida,killed himself by overdosing on his bipolar medication.He did this live on webcam.Sources say that viewers of tha webcam feed had interaction with him during this whole thing.Some viewers told him not to do it,while some egged him on to do it.Some viewers called tha police but by tha time they showed up,it was too late.I can't sleep so i was lookin around on aol.com and i saw this.Its pretty messed up.I don't like how some people told him to do it.They say they thought it was only a joke,but still don't joke with someones life that.People,be smart.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Retarded Policemen
This is a youtube series thats one of my favs.This is tha seventh video out of like twenty somethin.
Boredom
Its my first free friday nite in a while.I'm in band and during marching season,your weekend pretty much belongs to tha band.And after sayin that,this is tha most borin friday nite i've had in a while.I went to panda express and that wuz about it.Normally i woulda prolly been out and about,but i kinda failed spanish so i can't really go anywhere.I wuz plannin on goin to see "Role Models" tonite at tha Starplex.But instead i stayed home,listened to 808 and Heartbreaks,and tried to rebuld my myspace.Rebuilding a deleted myspace is tha hardest thing i've done in awhile,other than my spanish hw.Its discouraging lookin at your friend count and only seein 25 people.I sent out like 100 friend requests but people aren't respondin.I haven't got rejected or accepted from alotta people.They just aren't smart enough to check their friend requests under tha lil update thingy!Srry that wuz my discouragin-anger side.Ummmm i watched my good friend Melody Choi's Two Girls 1 Cup Video Reaction.It wuz really funny but i'm pretty sure it wuznt intentional.I made a new friend today.Her name is Sierra Fagot.She's a pregnant gurl,but she's not like all tha otha preggies runnin around.She doesn't seem like she should be pregnant,she's just in a really unfortunate situation.And her baby daddy is actin like a donkey from wut i hear.She's tha type of gurl where if she took me to Maury and claimed i wuz tha baby daddy,but i turned out not to be,i would still take care of tha child.So sierra if u read this,idk wut to say but yeah.Ummm i've just about drank a 2 liter of pepsi by myself.Livin healthy.Ummmm idk wut else to say.I wanna thank ms.fox,my english II teacher who taught me this thing called ranting in a journal and thats wut i just did for u.U just write down everything that comes to mind.So thats wut i did but i toned it down a bit cuz i didnt wanna scare u.My mind is a very dangerous place.Seriously.If u don't think so,just ask me to rant outloud in your presence.Kay bye!!!!
Kanye Is A Flippin Genius
I'm listenin to Kanye's 808 and Heartbreaks on myspace.He's previewin tha album before it drops.All i can say is that i have tha biggest man crush rite now.No homo but....ummmm no homo.I can already hear tha haters tlkn but i wont be one of em.Alot of people don't like tha fact that he's singin most of tha cd,but i think its a new thing that a million will be doin sooner rather than later.Rite now my favorite song is "Say You Will,"but "Paranoid"isn't far behind.I love tha whole thing rite now.I've listened to tha cd about 4 times already and i'm nowhere tired of it.And ima still buy tha cd.Kanye,my idol,ur no longer a beast,ur a monsta!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Long Hair Don't Care!!!!!!!!!!
I cant wait till Thanksgiving break.I haven't brushed my hair in some days.U can't really tell cuz tha Man above didn't intend for me to be durtty.Lol.All cockiness aside,i'm done learnin for tha week so srry teachers.I quit like tuesday afternoon but who cares.Honestly,my hair ain't really all that long its just it feels that way.Well thats my thoughts for today.Ttyl.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
If I Was Your Friend On Myspace.........PLEASE ADD ME!!!!!!!!!!!
Its hard tryin to get back to 350+ friends on my own.
Hello I'm Mr.Lonely
My myspace got deleted tha other nite and now i'm startin from scratch.Alot of tha things i did and felt in tha first six weeks,are coming back.Well idk really i'm confused about alotta stuff rite now.And its stuff that should be easy.It feels like nobody is there for me now.I have a gf but i cant tlk to her regularlly.I cant tlk to anyone regularlly cuz i dont have my phone rite now.My dad thinks my best friend is a bad influence,and honestly,he has good reason to think so.I rarely even see my bestfriend anymore.He's off trynna be famous at an early age,which i dont think is wise.I cant tlk to mom or dad about anything cuz they're always busy.My real dad kinda acts like i'm a sixteen year old boi that he can tlk sports wit every coupla months when we actually tlk.Shoot,I dont even have my phone so i feel disconnected from society.I dont wanna have a pity party,but dang I'm lonely. :(
Sunday, November 16, 2008
This Picture Symbolizes My Life
Mainly tha time period from tha second week of skool up until three weeks later.Then a day after those three weeks it got bad again.And thats it up until this point.Anybody whose close to me knows why.Its like i had somethin good in my life(sunglasses)but then somethin happened and now i can't really do tha things i could do before with them.And recently i learned u can't trust anyone,not even your golf coach*cough cough*.I bet half of yall didnt know anything bad was goin on.Its cuz i'm a beast at smilin. =}.So now ima concentrate more on music and clothes and less on golf.And i wuz born to speak english,i'm done wit spanish.I'll be ignorant(as my teacher would say).
One Love
Black People.......
There are so many funny things about this video.First tha amateur sketch is too funny.Lmao.Then that random black man wuz prepared to go to war wit tha leprechaun.He had his armor on and his mystical flute lol.This wuz too funny.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
History(Jay-Z feat.Tony Williams)
This song and Kelsia Kendrick inspired me to write my random election thoughts post.
U See Some Weird Stuff At Tha Public Library
I went to tha Southwest regional library today,and there was some throwed lookin people walkin around.At least two people pulled out there phones and started tlkn like they were at home.People were coughin and tlkn to themselves.And one man must've been goin bald or sumthin cuz he kept touchin his hair.It almost looked like he wuz puttin it back in place.Idk maybe i dont get out enough.And i found this homo book(its tha pic of tha book).Its called "how to come up from bein on tha down low" or sumthin like that,but when i saw it, i started crackin up cuz dude on tha cover looked tooo gay.Thats it for now.Bye!!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
Random Election Thoughts
Kids are really startin to piss me off.At least one class period a day I have to hear Barack Obama's name in negative way.Back in May when I really started to get into this election and I supported Barack more and more,I thought that things would be better when he won.But they really aren't.I've really kept my mouth shut on all that stuff for tha most part.Like if I were to be wearin something with Obama's face on it,someone would say sumthin like anti-christ or Barack Hussein Obama, and I would just say that's your opinion and I have mine so please drop it.But if somebody else says one more thing I might snap.That's my hero that you're tlkn about.So many people look at him and get so much inspiration,black and white people,and u sit there and bad-mouth him like he's a babydaddy on maury.I look at that man and I know that I can do anything and if I fail there should be no excuses.He came outta Chicago which is honestly one of tha worst places to be at times.If he can accomplish wut he did from being raised in an area like that,then I should be able to do anything.And why would u decide tha future of tha U.S. on one man's middle name?That's tha problem with this country.U see an afganistan person and u think terrorist.I may judge people before I know them but its not right.I don't see why u should judge a man based on his middle name.This may be jumbled,I got so much on my mind and its tryin to all come out at once.And now to make it less historic,people are now sayin that he's 5% black,so why is this so significant?First I wanna know where they got 5% from.And second is why must we as people try to find sumthin negative about everything?I used to just think this wuz just an african-american thing but now I see otherwise.There's another incomplete thought.Okay next.And tha day after tha election,people came in skool sayin"Can't wait for 2012,new president!"Tha man isn't even officially in office and yall are countin down tha days till he's gone.I think I got more to say.Naw i'll rap it up.All i'm sayin is that,he's my leader.He's my role model.Barack Obama is my inspiration and hearin people tlk about him as bad as they do hurts.I heard a teenager say keep tha white house white.When is this stuff gonna stop.I thought we were gonna be tha generation to end it all.Man my finers hurt.Fyi I texted this on my new pocket pc.I got word on there so that's prolly gonna be how I do this blog stuff.My friend Kelsia Kendrick said and I quote"thinks its really sad that some ppl jus cant {{ENJOY}} history in the making...and have to resort to ignorance in order to fill a void. {{iTS OVER NOW}}.."and I totally agree with her.Idk i'll prolly follow up on this later,I got a history project due wednesday and I need to head to tha library.So bye!
Peace and Much Love To Ya
Peace and Much Love To Ya
Saturday, November 8, 2008
I Know I'm Late But................
download this!!!!!!!!!
Wale's The Mixtape About Nothing
WALE Mixtape About Nothing - Tracks 1-10
http://www.zshare.net/download/12813957b640c837/
WALE Mixtape About Nothing - Tracks 11-19
http://www.zshare.net/download/128141371647c66a/
This Video Cracks Me Up
It has funny parts but it also makes me laugh because its true about wut he says about swagger jackers
T-Pain - Karaoke featuring DJ Khaled [OFFICIAL VIDEO]
T-Pain - Karaoke featuring DJ Khaled [OFFICIAL VIDEO]
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