From The Pencil Of An Escapist

Summer can't get here faster.I'm ready for my vacation.Many see summer vacations as vacations from their homes or their cities or their families.My vacations are usually vacations from myself.Whether I'm going to Louisiana or Florida,my time spent there is usually spent being another person.Well not necessarily a different person,but a better person.Just like the freshman girl going into her sophomore year,I develop.My thighs don't get thicker,but my mind gets sharper.My childish face doesn't mature,but my mind set does.My breasts don't get bigger,but my dick does.Even though I'm staying up until 3 A.M. and then sleeping the next day away,it finally feels like I'm living.That's all i want to do.Live.I'm in Fort Worth,Texas.I don't live here.I struggle here.Struggle with keeping it going.Keeping it going until I'm gone.Gone to bigger and better things.Things nobody would have ever thought Delano Taylor would accomplish.These thoughts keep me going.If i weren't the great visionary i am,i would be dead in an alley,high on PCP.Running away to Mexico,where i can live out my life.Metaphorically.Even though i bash Texas like i do,i know it's the boulderesque stepping stone i need to make it to where I'm going.After saying that.....I'm ready for summer.I pray that it will be nothing like last summer.No more 4 hour golf practices in the 100 degree weather.No more hour long bible studies between me and my stepdad.No more 3-4 hour sessions of cleaning an already spotless bedroom.And no more all night phone conversations with a girl I'm afraid to break up with.No more lawn mower pushing every 4 days.No more Coinstar visits just so that me and my sister can have lunch.Nope.I'm running away from it all.Running away never solves problems,but it sure as hell beats staying here with it.The problem will stay in Texas.I might check up on the problem every few weeks.Just to humor him.The problem knows i hate his guts.But the problem also knows i can't do anything about it.The problem adopted Delano when he was 3 and is know legally attached.For one more year,that is.Oh sweet satisfaction it will be on April 12,2010.After that,the problem will be no more.But shiiiiit,how the problem's been acting lately makes an anxious Delano want to run away.And that's where summer comes into play.Just a little trial and error.If i like it,cool.If i really like it,good bye Texas.No need to worry about if i don't like it.As long as I'm leaving,that won't cross my mind.With no clear cut road to Florida,I still try to be optimistic.All the elements for a super summer are there.New Cool Kids mixtape.New Wale mixtape.120 GB iPod.Blackberry arriving halfway through summer.G.I.Joe.Transformers 2.Warped Tour.NO STEPDAD.Best friend back in town.Developing love interest.Senior year on the horizon.I just need one more thing to make it all tie together.A phone call from my father.