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Heyy.I'm sitting in my school's auditorium,bored.My band director told me to meet at the school at SIX.It's fucking 6:02 and nobody's here.I shoulda came at like 6:30 like I originally planned.But what can you do?Right?So yeah...It's funny how little things you say to people show up later in the day in other situations and stuff.How things you say won't come true do.Yesterday for example,I was talking to a friend of mine and she was asking me if I was gonna blog about the rain.I told her no because I didn't see the relevance of that topic.But in a few hours,the rain would end up having mucho relevance.So it rained yesterday.I walk home,unless I feel like getting a ride from someone.So it was raining and that day I didn't have a ride.I called my stepdad about 4 times in 5 minute increments.Never answered.I then call my mom and she was at work.She wouldn't be able to reach me for at least another hour and a half at the least.So like everyone else had left and gone home for the day.Shit.After staying at the school about half an hour after school got out,I walked home.It was pouring down raining and it felt like it was 50 degrees.Good thing it only takes me like 10 minutes to get home.So I go home,chuck's all soaked with water.So I chill,watch First Sunday(funny ass movie),and eat pizza.My dad gets home,doesn't say shit about me walking home.But he can ask my sister(his biological daughter)about her half a street length dstance from the bus stop.My mom gets home and does something similar.Now I know my sister is a girl and all,but I mean I feel that I should get treated with the same love(no homo)as she does.On several occasions,my parents show my sister more interest in my little sister.Hey that came up in conversation earlier that day too lol.Shout out to Kelly Rodgers.But yeah that's just how I feel.And that's in a lot of things.I finally accepted that i'm not important.I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me either.That's the harsh reality that i've stumbled upon.A lot of times I find myself fading into the background .It's not on purpose.Trust me.I'm cool with it at school and other places.But at home?That's pretty messed up.When i'm in Hawaii,there will be nobody to ignore me.At least that's what I hope.