Another Epiphany

People,I'm confused!I had church tonite.Oh yeah,its new years eve.So yeah,I was pretty mad when I heard I was spending new years eve at church.I wanted to get fucked up(for black people,that means I wanted to get really drunk)!So yeah that's pretty messed up when u think about it.I would rather get drunk instead of go to church.So yeah,I'm pretty disappointed in myself.And I had the nerve to complain about how much time the pastor kept us over.The reason he kept everyone over was because he got everyone in the church to write out their plans for the new year and put it on the alter.Sidebar,my church numbers close to nine thousands in membership.And they had to turn people back because of fire hazard reasons.It was packed.Soo yeah,he got errbody and they mama to come down and pray.Well not everyone,just those who were willing to go down.Of course,I didn't go.Soo yadayadayda.I'm outside,remember I just got of church,singing "Bed"by J.Holiday.And the secular songs just kept rolling off my tongue!I was even cussin in church.Mainly in mind,but still!WTF!I saw many weeping and it had zero to noo affect on me.I felt gay in a sense(this is gonna be a gay analogy,but i'm straight.I love me some boobies!).Me and the guys are at a titty bar and this chick is dancing on me.Butt naked!!!Errbody else is all happy and i'm like meehhh.My dick doesn't even jump.Idk how to compare it to church,but my dick didn't jump tonite.I'm pretty mad about it.This happens everywhere I go.I always feel out of place.But the one place I should feel at home,the place I should feel like I belong....I don't.=/.Maybe it's the pressure that I feel when it comes to christianity?My grandfather is a pastor and it feels as if though he is tryin to push me down that path.He says it's the right thing to do,seeing as how I have somewhat of a gift when it comes to words.Am I trying to tell him that I don't fit the preacher mold,by acting like God....is idk,not important?Trust me,it hurts to write this stuff.My mother and father are deep in the church family.Almost all my family members are deep in the church.My little brother runs around singing church music,and he's only three!The only reason I go to church on sundays,is to get away from my stepdad(and to be treated so cici's minutes after that).Idk i'm rambling,I gotta go.Maybe you guys can help me find somethin to make my dick jump???

Why U Hate Your Family Sooo Much(According To Scientists)

I was on yahoo news sidebar,they have the most interesting news in my opinion,and i found this study.Its on Discovery News.com.The findings are published in the latest issue of the journal Neuropsychologia.The bold stuff is me and the italics is the stuff i found important.

-- Visiting -- or even just viewing photos of family members -- prompts brain activity that affects how you feel about them, your friends, and even yourself, a new study suggests.

The study is the first to compare brain activity associated with seeing relatives with that linked to seeing friends and strangers. It suggests our feelings about biological relatives are at least somewhat primal.

The findings may help explain everything from why our family can get on our nerves to why people who look like us can spark immediate feelings of trust, "but not lust," said Steven Platek, who co-authored the study with Shelly Kemp.

"We like to be around people that look more like us, but we do not find them as sexually attractive," added Platek, editor-in-chief of the journal Frontiers in Evolutionary Neuroscience. "I think it is linked to our subconscious ability to detect facial resemblances so we avoid lusting after those that may be related to us."

Okay so what i get outta that is that we fight so that we let the other person think we aren't phyisically attracted to them.Idk,i read it earlier and it made more sense,but now its all jumbled.Video games rotted my mind lol.Well i guess i'll end it.Bye!

Myspeezey Pet Peeves

Myspace is king.No lie,I'm addicted,along with many others.I constantly find myself checkin it during the day.Most of the time,I check it on my phone.That's when I knew I reached a new low.But i'm not writing to tell people about my love of the myspeezey,as me and Joshua would say.By the way hit up his new blog.joshsfreeknowledge.blogspot.com.Stupid faggot forgot his password to his old one.Anywhoo,today I tried to put all my pet peeves on paper(i used about two pages front and back)and I noticed a lot of them came from myspace.I'll go over the major one's for now.First,I hate that when i'm on myspace on my phone,it won't say i'm online.I still get stuff,but prolly not as much as if I were showing I was online.Okay second,I hate it when people ask me to comment their pics!Like to a certain degree.Its cool if u send me a little message that mentions it,but not flat out,"Go and comment my pics,or we ain't friends no more!"What's the significance of a photo comment?Does it say,"Hey errbody,I got people lookin at my pictures"?Is that cool now?I mean,what happened to regular comments?Those are better tooo me.And if u ask me to comment your pics,it won't be my true feelings!Lets play out a scenario!If Bob asks Joe to comment Bob's pic,the comment would be like,"Hahahahaha you're a faggot!"But if Bob plays it cool and just doesn't say anything,Joe will stumble upon his pics and his comment might go like this."You know Bob,i've had somethin on my chest for awhile and now ima say it.I love me some you.From your tight ass to your face that looks as if God chisled it himself!I wanna be on u!"Now which one would you want?Don't answer that.That's the only way I could break it down too let u understand.I couldn't get the words out,but anyway...It irks me when people post bulletins or status updates that's like,"Comment my pics and i'll return the favor!"Nobody cares really!Shit's annoying!Also,I didn't really like the fan signs for awhile,but those didn't last long.I grew a lil fond of em',but meehhh.I hate it when people add a song to their page,but they get it from a bootleg page that's not the artist's.I mean,if the person doesn't have the song on their page,more power to ya!But if they do have the song,why not just add the official one?I hate it when people have a layout,but its mucho bootleg lookin!Take pride in your work!I hate it when people make a big deal about not bein on my top,or if they're too low.My top hasn't been good in a good coupla months!I just threw some people on there and moved people around just to satisfy a few kids.But yeah that's it.I gotta end this.I feel like writing some deep shit!Love,peace,and chicken grease!

Kiss Me Thru The Phone(Soulja Boy Tell Em' feat.Some Guy lol)

Prolly my fave song rite now!!!

09' Is Gonna Be Different

I thought i should just let u know.I'm f@#*#@g s*#t up.No more cussin either(yeah like that'll last).I haven't been blogging because i'm on vacation.I hate texas sooo much rite now.Christmas was great...all the stuff in louisiana is great rite now,even though its raining.This is a boring blog to write and prolly to read no lie.This stuff has to be said though before i forget it.I don't do this blogging stuff for others enteratainment soo much,but more as a personal journal to gather my thoughts for others to see and soo i don't forget lol!I'm tired of being depressed.None of that anymore.And every person's myspace page says,"2008 was the worst year of my life."Oh yeah i forgot,:(.It prolly was,but for some it was over-reaction.My synopsis of 08' was somewhat of an over-reaction.Everybody says,"I don't even know myself anymore!":(.Some people are still the same,others not soo much.I have changed alot this past year.Outward and inward.I ended 07' in baggy jeans and a XL polo.Ima end 08' in skinny jeans and a medium zoo york tee.I even skated al little in 08'.Like fifteen mins.,but thats a major step seeing that i quit in 5th grade because i cared what others thought.Thats how i changed the most this year really.Fuck a hater,i'm on my shit was/is my motto.I started 08' shy,ended it fly.In the middle of 08',i was mean to girls(because thats cool),now i'm what some refer to as a sweetheart.I do have my moments,but for the most part i'm good.Sooo yeah alotta newness in me.I feel that God put me through alot this year to make me a better me.After all the stuff i do wrong,i learn a lesson.All those lessons turn me into a better person.Soo if i gotta go thru stuff to make me the best,bring it.08' brought me friendships from many unpredictable places.I know alotta different people and i think 09' is gonna be 2x crazier.In early 08',i only tlkd to people i thought were cool,later i tlkd to everyone and now i got more friends.Idk why i'm sayin all this,but like i said before,its gotta be done!No new years resoulution because those never last.Oh yeah i made no cussing mine.There's a reason for that(because it won't last).Damn my fingers hurt.08' i stopped being ignorant.In too many ways to explain but mostly racially.I will date any race of a girl.In the dark,we're all the same color!Lmfao!!Hit me up girls =D!This is gettin too confusing and ima end it.If i have anymore thoughts,i'll post it!I'll end by saying,i love being different.So i'll be different.08' was the best year of my life.This year taught me how to be a better child,sibling,student,friend,lover(lol not really),father(through the mistakes of others),..shit,because of 08' Ima better person!!!After everything thrown at me,i still stand as the happiest 16 yr old you'll ever meet.Thanks to great friends and this mind God blessed me with,i made lemons into beef stew!Idk how to end it sooo kljdsfdjklssfljkd!!!!!!!!!!

Louisiana,Safe Haven For A Horny Drunk

Being in louisiana for four days now,i've noticed a few things.First off,in this little big town called Alexandria,there are alotta attractive people here.Fine women,especially white girls(young and old).The black girls are mostly loud and ugly.But there are some quiet,lighter complexioned ones who catch my eye.Anyways,beautiful people everywhere.Next thing I noticed,alotta gay guys here too.There was one who rung me up at old navy.I knew he wanted to tlk to me when I walked in the store because his face lit up.Soo when the time came to purchase my shirt and jacket,he started with the small tlk.Where I went to school,what grade I was in,if I was single.Chea,it went there.I had to decline the guy,on the basis that he wasn't my type because he was a guy.I told him I was flattered though.Next thing is that there are drive thru's for alcohol.They have an open container law,but who cares I guess.In louisiana,most women always have their hair done.Its not uncommon to see a well pampered lady followed by a well pampered little girl.Or a boy with a fresh cut.All the kids here are different.U don't see tooo many kids with fresh shoes or nothing.They have the basics.I tlkd to a black skater here and he told me that nobody trips on how they look clothes wise here.I went to pac-sun and i had to dig to find skinny jeans.That's strange too me,but alotta people think skinnys are strange soo idk.Also in louisiana,church is life,as it should beee duh!My grandpa is the pastor of one of the biggest churches in the area soo its even more for me when I visit.There is more but I got a serious brain fart!!All that's goin on in my brain rite now is sleep.Sooo bye!

Kids!!!Can Live With Em',Sometimes Rather Live Without Em'

I fuckin hate little kids!!!Not really,but rite now I'm in a doo-doo-eh mood.My two little cousins,my little sister,and my little brother are the one's shittin on my parade rite now.It all started this morning,but I'll skip to the main part.Sooo today is the day after christmas.Basically,one of the biggest shopping days of the year.Sooo first we were gonna go to the mall here in louisiana.But noooo we can't go because we got a million little kids with us!I felt like a member of bay-bay's kids,seriously!So instead we just go to old navy,where I got a gift card to.So we're in there and I don't see a damn thang!I mean there was this bubble jacket I was feelin,but not feelin enough to give up my whole gift card for.Soo I just sat on a bench in the front of the store.Sooon after,there were a group of bad kids surronding me.Of course,my siblings.Soo we're sittin and then my little girl cousin decides to scale a glass window.One of the sale signs stuck to the window broke,so like one side was hangin down,while the other side was up.GHETTO!!!!!So I muttered some sailor words and pretended to look at some jeans.After that,I went back and sat on the bench.Soon after taking a seat,the bootleg sign falls on the top of my head!The weight of the sign and people's stares feel on my back,and I didn't like it all!After folding it up and throwing it on some sweaters,I fell back onto the bench.I had to tell myself that everything is okay,and I wasn't gonna lose my cool in this store.After holding back my tears,I notice that my little cousin,Baby T,was running around the store.It comes to shock when seconds before he sitting in a stroller buckled in.After running around and scooping him up from beneath a table,I ask my sister,"How did he get out?"And she says,"I let him out."ghdjhdjhdjshcd!!!!Do u see what I have to deal with!!!Stupidity too the highest degree!I mean why didn't u chase him?Why did u let him out?Why don't I just kill u in your sleep,huh?!?!?I didn't ask her any of this?Because the next word would have been the invention of a new cuss word(jibberish)!I'm kinda found of raphucknishblagah!Soo I ask my grandma for the keys to the car and I load everyone in there.Yadayadayda and we're at game stop.So i'm tryin to get Madden 09.But it took forever to get out of the car because I had heavy opposition from sister,who was tryin to tag her happy ass along.After losing her in traffic,I bust in into Game Stop to find the line starting at the door.They were having a huge sale.Soo i'm lookin and I find Madden and as I walk to the one of the many lines,my grandmother comes and says,"We gotta go,your cousin has to pee."The same one who broke the sign fyi!Raphucknishblagah!!!Soo we go across the street to Wal-Mart.In that short twenty second drive,I was hit in the head,spit on,and Baby T bit me!Soo as I wait for my slow sister to get out,Baby T threw up EVERYWHERE!!!!I'll admit I threw a BF(bitch fit)in the parking lot.I might add,a tear fell out of my eye.Soo we run in the store to prevent an accident,but there soo many obstacles in the way!There were people everywhere,aisle after aisle was blocked off,and one of the bathrooms was closed.Only the girls one I might add!Its nothing but the devil!Soo we run to the back of the store where she finally goes to the bathroom.Sigh!We head back to the car and now i'm typing on my phone!Sooo yeah this helped a bit,but pray I don't kill those kids!!!

Pork Chop Sandwhiches

MY FIRST EVER TRIP TO THE WASHATERIA!!!!!!!!!

It was crazy fun.Idk why but it released alot of negative energy i was having.I first got there and people were givin me salty look,lawry's lol.I think its because i was over dressed as usual.Everyone else was wearing sweats and skull caps and i was wearing a cardigan,a graphic tee,and some jeans.I thought that my wearing of a skull cap would include me in the gang,but i was wrong.Its like grade school all over again!Jk jk.Back to the story,i went and got some quarters.The machine said,"use quater machine at your own risk,"but i was feeling dangerous.So i put the ten dollar bill in and got my quarters.So then i picked out my machines.Got three for myself and they were the newest ones in there.So i started washing clothes and was myspacin on my phone.After that transfered the clothes to the dryer and folded them.Not much happened there.I was runnin around with my sister,roasting each other and txtn.It was a fun expierience and i took pics.Idk what else to say,soo bye!!!!!!

Common's New Mixtape

http://www.zshare.net/download/523573775e14bdd0/